damn..

this has been the worst week.

my G1 is broken & im probably not getting another one.
im still fucking sick. & i gained 2 lbs.

im making a new blog. & i promise im going to update every single day.


DELETE THIS

blame it on the chinese food.

im sooo sick.
i have strep throat, i can't swallow.
& i keep throwing up. i don't know what's
good with me! i wonder if i have food poisining or something :/
oh well. at least i caught up on my sleep. thats kindof all i care
about since i say up till 3 in the morining and wake up 3 hours later.
and then sleep for a hour while everyones eating luch.

but its whatever. nothing exciting is going to happen today.

today

was pure hell. we lost both games tonight. by 30.


& i just got off the phone with him.
he was acting really weird. &
i was concerned when he hung
up without saying i love you.

recap of today:
melissa came to study today & we went to albania.
& i found a marker that wrote really good so i started writing on desks & shit.
went to mings with khairy, tristain, timmy b., alex, jamal, richie, chealsea & ovb. melissa.
then walked back to d-high & lost both my basketball games.

the clearest memory...

i know i was young, about 2 years old. all the noise woke me up from my nap. glass breaking, things being thrown, & yelling. lots and lots of yelling. i was now sitting on the couch. watching my mother and father argue. all i hear is my name and cursing. they get closer and closer. screaming in eachothers faces. then it happens, she starts crying. a big red mark on her face. he bends down to kiss me on the forehead and says "i love you babygirl. ill be back" & leaves. to this day, never come back for me.

i never really had a father . thats why i become very clingy to guys. because i never felt that love before from a man that cares enough about me. i will never let a man treat me that way. especially to up & leave me with my kids. i need the one for me. i've stopped searching & realized he will come one day. that perfect man to scoop me up and live the perfect life with me.

so...

this is my first post :] . instead of blabbing on to my friends about my issues, i can just put it on here for the world to see.it seems like a good idea. alot of people don't know the real me so now they can get closer into what the life of nani is. im going to try to post everyday to keep everyone updated. ima try to put a picture in that i took that day. this will probably be my life now lol. but lets not waste time...

welcome to nani'sWORLD.